Discovering Your Inner Lighthouse After Dark

Spiritual depression can also be known as Dark Night of the Soul. Typically, when a person gets to this point they are feeling like their life is meaningless or that life doesn't have purpose, or make sense anymore.

Individuals going through a Dark Night of the Soul can't seem to find comfortable in anyone or anything. It begins to feel like life is hopeless, and someone going through this may begin to feel isolated and trapped.

In this profound darkness, it feels like there is no way out. Like there is no coming out of this fog that possesses your soul. However, in my own personal experience; it is the darkness that leads way to profound transformation. It is 100% possible to overcome this by getting the guidance and support that your soul craves.

In 2014, I had lost every single desire to do what used to be my passion. I had worked in Medical Management for almost 25 years and held customer service trainings, employee monthly meetings and more. I would create new systems and pathways to create revenue while helping to motivate my employees. We dealt with negative energy from patients at times so this was crucial.

At one point I completely lost all joy and passion for this career that had supported myself as a single mother. I had no idea what to do, and at this time I didn’t understand that this was the beginning of my Awakening.

Things started to feel very dark, and my life felt very shooken up. I didn’t realize it, but this was all happening so I could wake up to my full potential. But at the time I just kept sinking deeper because I didn’t have the guidance I so desperately needed.

Often times when similar situations happen to others it is easy for them to victimize themselves. They become victims of their upbringing, of their values and beliefs. Everything we begin to believe goes against that of which we have thought for so many years. The foundation upon which our life has been built upon begins to crumble.

When this pattern first began in my first marriage; nobody in my life truly understood what I was going through. My parents only saw my appearance and how things looked from the outside. I had a career. I had two wonderful children, and a husband. But, things were far from perfect. My marriage was dying and I knew that I needed to get out.

I felt the same way about my career, and left cold turkey without any backup plan. I went from having a full-time paycheck to being a full-time mom and not being compensated for it.

This was a very tough learning lesson for me because I had put the value of me bringing in a paycheck to equate the value of who I was.

Without the paycheck I felt worthless; like I brought nothing to the table without that paycheck. And this is how I came into my spiritual depression because I tied my personal worth and value to how much money I was able to bring in. Me not being able to bring in anything made me feel less than worthy of anything.

What’s crazy about all of this is that it can happen at any point in life. You can be in your 40s and all of the stuff that has been suppressed in your subconscious since childhood can resurface. It all begins to rise up because it is your soul’s way of saying, “I don’t want to live like this anymore!”

That is exactly what happened to me and I desired so deeply to heal and to release those thoughts, feelings and beliefs. I wanted to let it all go so I could feel free. Because when you can let all that stuff go is when you have true freedom of self.

I can tell you that at the end of this darkness is a tremendous peace waiting for you. This peace has always been there waiting. Think of it like a lighthouse inside you; patiently shining in the dark. That light will never die, but it is up to you to discover that little dim light so you can find the inner peace you deserve.

And, when you find that light is when the healing can begin. This is the place where you can start to nurture your soul back to health allowing that light to shine brighter and brighter until the healing journey goes full circle allowing you to come back to your core.

So, how can you get through your Dark Night of the Soul to discover your inner lighthouse?

Surrender.

Surrender to the feelings. Because this is the only way to truly release them from your body.

You can do this through journaling your thoughts and feelings out on paper.

All of the feelings; get them out so they can no longer infiltrate your inner being.

Trust me, I know how real those feelings can be. I remember feeling so lifeless, and wondering how I can be of service to others when I felt like I was dying inside.

These thoughts and feelings went on for three whole years and all I could ponder was, “How could this happen to me?” I had left Corporate America to lead a different life, and I felt worse than ever.

Things finally came to a head when I visited a doctor to attempt getting onto medication. This doctor saw something in me, and felt that the medication would not be able to truly help. This is because I needed to go deep within to discover the root causes of all of these feelings of worthlessness.

This is where journaling can help significantly because it allows you to shine light on patterns that you’ve been stuck in for years so you can change them once and for all.

Another thing that helped nourish my soul back to health was taking relaxation more seriously than ever before. I took plenty of walks to connect with nature. I began taking dance classes and watching romantic movies. I did meditation and whatever else my soul felt called to do. My energy began to shift and I finally was able to tune into my true feelings.

Engaging in specific breathing techniques is another thing that can support you and your soul in coming back to life. Combining breathing exercises with physical movement can help to shake up and release that stagnant energy that’s staying stuck within. Releasing this energy can allow inspired energy to flow through you more easily.

Lastly, getting the outside help and support your soul craves is a great way to heal. I had been seeing a healer during my Dark Night of the Soul, but at times I felt quite resistant to seeing her. I thought that because I had worked so long with her that I came to a point where I didn’t need her support any longer. What I came to realize though is that everytime we encounter new experiences we have the potential to get triggered in different ways.

We have the opportunity to be taken back to a past life, or to our childhood, or before that and that is why having someone guide us through this deep healing process is so helpful. And, it doesn’t matter who provides the healing. I had seen a traditional therapist, a hypnotherapist and my healer.

Of course my energy healer was the most transformational, and I finally was able to get to my core to discover what my purpose truly is here on this Earth. I learned that I am supposed to be out there helping others reach their light so they can realize their full potential, and live from a place of true authenticity.

And, if you are having a hard time discovering your inner lighthouse then connect with me. Let’s work together. Allow me to guide you through this healing process. It might not be an overnight thing, but when you show up for you then you allow others to show up for you too.

You are not alone. Your life on this Earth is not meant to be spent alone. You have help, and I am here for you.