Surrendering to myself: My journey of becoming free of my religion

Growing up I was very sheltered due to being raised in an extremely religious & strict household. I had no clue what the real world was like and how mean & insensitive people could truly be. And, when I entered the workforce at 17 years old the reality of the world hit me hard.

You see, I always felt different, especially during my school years. I graduated from a 4-year Seminary school that I attended 5 days a week starting at 5:55am everyday.

Sometimes I would try to fit in, and other times I didn’t care to. It often felt like way too much work to be liked and approved of by others.

When I got married I made a conscious, yet rebellious decision to stop going to church because I was done with being forced to engage in all of the responsibilities that came along with being an active church-goer. Deep in my heart I was seeking freedom that I never quite experienced being a part of the church.

Thirteen years later I found myself divorcing my husband because we simply weren’t evolving at the same pace, and I desired so deeply to become more of myself. This intense desire led me down a path of reckless behavior that almost led to an overdose at age 31.

I truly believed that this was what experiencing life was supposed to be like. I thought that this was what surrendering to the real me meant. However, after many years living that life I found myself in a thick fog.

“Was this my mid-life crisis?” I would ask myself. I felt so lost and apathetic to the world around me. Interest in my kids and career vanished. From the outside looking in I had it all, but my heart and soul were crying out for more. And, in the midst of all of this, I felt I was a huge disappointment to my parents because my life did not turn out to be the fairytale they always envisioned me having.

Then, at 40 years old I was hit with a massive storm of shame, guilt and embarrassment. My parents had abandoned me and I hadn’t been present with my kids for years. I sat there and wondered what I could possibly be looking for. What would allow me to feel full and whole?

Being a part of the church certainly didn’t provide me with the sense of fulfillment I was seeking. My family didn’t make me feel whole. Money was no longer a motivation. I could not figure out what would make me feel passionate about life again.

In 2013, I contemplated leaving my career, but I had no idea how that would be possible after working in Medical Management for close to 25 years. After all, this career was my bread and butter! Later that year, a co-worker returned from a retreat and I noticed her glowing. It was like love and happiness were emanating from her.

We were not close friends, but something inside propelled me to ask her for a hug. That hug was magic! And, in that week something shifted in me.

The urge to leave my job was getting stronger, but my courage was also strengthening. I had no sense of direction in life, but what I knew in my heart was that I needed to quit Corporate America.

I felt a wash of relief when I finally mustered up enough courage to give my notice. Then, fear quickly settled in because I quit without a backup plan. Thankfully my boyfriend at the time (now husband) said he was okay with me staying at home with our 2 year old.

A few months later, I met a teacher in a Metaphysical class. Her class inspired me to pursue my search to discover how to continuously feel the “It Feeling,” that I felt that day. I didn’t know how to explain it, but I came to know it as energy, and I wanted to have the same energy that she operated for. It was out of this world!

I finally found the “it” I was searching for!

So the journey began…

I approached my teacher and asked her if she did 1:1 coaching; to my contentment she said yes.

We started working together and I grew curious as to what we would do during our time. She said that she focuses primarily on a modality called Theta healing. All I knew was that I was noticing major, permanent changes.

All of the sudden 10 YEARS WORTH OF ANXIETY VANISHED!

From the age of 31 to 41 I had suffered from anxiety attacks due to dealing with the guilt for taking drugs, almost overdosing and leaving my kids without a mom in years prior.

These attacks were healed during my session, and THIS was when I knew it was real. That this type of energy healing worked for me.

These sessions also helped to strengthen my marriage and become a more understanding parent; all the while also becoming a better listener to my inner self. Tuning into myself is not something I ever learned in church, unfortunately, but if I would have followed the path of not becoming a “sinner” I wouldn’t have discovered my growth.

Six months later I received a call from within; an inner feeling that was telling me that THIS was what I was to do for others. To help others release repressed emotions of guilt, shame and abandonment from family, religion, relationships and from the world in general.

It’s been 5 years since I’ve successfully embarked on this journey of ENERGY and 4 years as a practitioner. Now, I am a teacher & instructor in Theta healing as well as a Reiki Master Healer and Teacher.

I’m currently getting my certification in Astrology and I have opened 3 businesses.

One is my Soul Searching Academy; another is my Business Consulting Company, and I am also an Ordained Marriage Minister.

By the way, remember that magical hug?

Well, it turns out that my coworker had been to a retreat in Italy and was taken to the grounds of St. Francis of Assisi. St. Francis cared for the poor and the sick. He had preached sermons to animals and praised all creatures as brothers & sisters under God.

I received his energies in that hug.

THAT is why I found “it!” IT WAS ENERGY!!!

Now, I pass onto others that same energy through universal energy, Christ energy & consciousness. I help awaken the light in others that had been awakened in me through my own teachings and soul sessions that i offer to the WORLD.

My work is for those that are awakening, seeking, searching and not quite knowing what it is they are searching for. I can offer that “it” feeling as well as the universal christ energy that was passed onto me.

I invite you to discover with me this new energy for you in my soul sessions. It is simply me bringing heaven on earth being an open channel of universal christ energy to help you release, unblock beliefs, patterns, trauma so you can live from an unchained mind free from your negative thoughts and patterns.

Working in my space you will feel safe to release and surrender to yourself, and experience an array of doors opening up positive for the present and future possibilities of your LIFE. Now ask yourself Am I ready to open those doors?